i am way too old to get drunk, listen to you proposition me, tell you that i'm not interested in FWB and then immediately wonder what would happen if i put my tongue in your mouth.

all of that. both as individual occurrences and together.

i have all this shit in my head - all these thoughts and emotions and concerns and fears and embarrassments and i need to get them out of my head and headed in a direction.

or at least just out of my head.

what follows will be an ongoing, somewhat narrative list of my actions, my realizations and my thoughts...all of which i'm way too fucking old to be experiencing.